Dearest Qasim and Ahad....

I miss you both so much. I am trying so hard to move on, I really am. But it's so hard. And I get mad at myself; for God's sake, it's over 2 years, and I still can't get over this. I still act like it was yesterday. But in my mind, it feels like it all happened yesterday, but it feels like a million years since I spoke to you, or saw you, or touched you.

It's spring here. Looking at the greenery reminds me of that day. When I walked into that hospital ER, and saw you both lying on the gurney, with the white sheet covering you both as you lay side by side. And there was that window right behind you, and I could see green plants right outside the window. It was as if that greenery was mocking me that it was growing and thriving, and you were no longer doing the same.

I miss you both so terribly.

Love,
Mom