I try to go day by day, minute by minute, second by second.
There are days I accept that you both have entered a new stage of existing, and then there are the other times. The times I am lost, broken, helpless, and keen for both of you. A simple thing such as coming across a lost sock of yours can push me to where I fall into the ever present pit that seems to be right beside me...I take one misstep and I fall into it, a deep abyss from where my tears and wails do not reach you.
I try, and will continue trying. But know this my sweet boys...every day, every minute, every second brings me closer to you.
